All The Other Things I Am

I was recently divorced and figuring out how to date, and not doing either of those things well. I was no one’s wife. No one’s girlfriend. Someone’s so-so Friday evening. I made a list of all the other things I am.

I am Lily’s mom. Jim and Kathy’s daughter. Andy’s ex-wife, yes, but also his friend.

I was wrapped up in my head and had a hard time communicating anything other than “I’m sad. I’m lonely. I’m small.” After a while, writers block ruined those topics, too. I put writing aside and did all the other things I love.

I ran. I biked. I gardened. I read. I spent incredible times with wonderful friends.

With one such friend, I lost my temper and lashed out unfairly. I was defensive and reactionary.

Alas, I also was passionate. Apologetic. Forgiving and – guess what – forgiven.

A change at work left me scared and uncertain. I heard from many people who reassured me. They said:

You will rock this. You are strong. You are fabulous at whatever you do. I am your fan.

All the times I flounder at the one thing,
I try my damnedest to remember all the things.

I am optimistic. I am grateful. I am loved. I am me.

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6 thoughts on “All The Other Things I Am

  1. I’ve been wrapped up in worry myself lately over an issue in a relationship. I couldn’t sleep last night so I got up to finish a bible study assignment that I hadn’t done. I was reminded that because of the presence of Christ we have no need to worry because he already knows our needs before we ask for them. (Matt 6) I’ve been a follower of Christ my whole life but I still let worry overwhelm me many days. I am praying that you will know the peace of Christ today.

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